Angsty..

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This is weird cos I usually don't write any journals... BUT today I just wanted to write something... maybe because I'm tired or just a lil bit angsty... BUT FIRST OF ALL you should know few things about me!

:bulletpurple:I'm not so social in Internet.. or I COULD BE.. but I'm kind of shy or something so I don't usually go talk to others. IF someone like to be friends with me... they have to come to me first... it suck I know but...I CAN BE GOOD FRIEND WITH U! I just have to get know or talk to you. or something...

:bulletpurple:something about my look.. I'm skinny and I have classes that I HAVE TO wear all the time.. when I got these I HATED THEM... I wasn't satisfied of them... until i got these new one which is RayBans what justin has used once justinb-da.deviantart.com/art/… sometimes I STILL HATE THESE COS THEY ARE ALWAYS ON MY WAY!!! -.-

:bulletpurple:I have been Belieber almost THREE YEAR NOW!!! I LOVE HIM!!! AND I WILL BE FOREVER BELIEBER!!!! :heart::heart::heart:

:bulletpurple:I love Justin more than One Direction.. it's a Fact...

:bulletpurple:I can't speak Spanish... Even thought I am in learning that in my school... our Spanish teacher is a jerk... he can't teach us nothing... he speaks bad Finnish... and if we don't understand him... he speaks English or Swedish (which I can speak lil bit)... and that's sucks... for us... WE ARE DOOMED...lol

:bulletpurple:As some of u can see... I haven't draw any jelena pics... cos the thing is ... I don't like them... I don't support them... I wish this wasn't a shock for anyone.. or anything cos I don't wanna lose watchers of this.. I just wanted to make it clear. I DON'T HATE anyone who support them I just don't like jelena. I'm not against pairing them and I can be friend with someone who support them. I DON'T WANT YOU TO HATE ME.... I'm innocent.

....lol... yeah as my title says... I'm little bit down I guess.. Even though my big brother had his graduation party today. But I have this cousin who is three year younger than me and shorter then me and all.. EVERYTIME WHEN I  see her... She look so more mature then me... she has so beautiful dress and hair and eyelash and everything you could imagine she got that... SHE even tried to be so much more than I am... I can remember when she was a little girl and she wanted to play with me with her toys and I was like "yay! let's play! so much fun" like try to be nice to her and make her happy.... she was my little cousin... AND NOW SHE TRY TO BE LIKE SOME MODEL... and I have to admit. she looks like older than me... it  makes me kind of sad... I know that her parents have spoiled her too much.. she was always like little princess to them... oifhoihefowhefpihegiehfiwHWIHfhfiÄKFJä...what am I talking here. i'm just a girl who don't put lot of make up who is skinny and flat... who have to use classes and don't have so nice things to wear.... I guess I'm jealous or then I miss the old time... idk.,.... it's just helps to write something here even though you don't read it.... it's helps me.... I doo this for me.. i'm just tired... my day have been rough..... i'm even too lazy to draw today....

(FUN FACT:I DRAW A LOT..... ONLY FEW DRAWINGS GET IN HERE DA! LOL)
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First the points about you…
• Its fine, I'm really shy too. But actually, I'm really really extremely shy in real life, but not so much on the internet. And you are a great friend to me, thank you!
• I hafta wear glasses too, and I hate them too! In fact, sometimes I just don't wear them… and my eyes are really bad so I can hardly see at all. And being skinny's not a bad thing, a ton of people wish they were skinny. I was never skinny until I got sick, and losing weight made me feel kinda better about myself. <.<
• Three years, that's how just long I've been a belieber too! YES FOREVER BELIEBER!!
• I love Justin more than 1D too. :D
• I'm struggling to learn Spanish too, but your teacher sounds really frustrating!
• No Jelena is just fine :D I used to love Jelena, but not anymore. Now I really don't like her cuz it seems she didn't treat him right D:<

Now! Congrats for your brother! And don't worry about your cousin :hug: Most people feel insecure, like there's who looks and acts somebody cooler than them. But there's somebody out there just for you, and you're the most perfect girl he could ever imagine. A lot of guys even prefer less make up on a girl, and like it best when she seems to be just trying to be herself. :heart: It's normal to feel jealous, it's kinda unfair how she seems to be rising above you like that when you can remember how it was like in the past… but probably she's just really insecure, and trying to look "perfect" to make up for that! And as I said before, skinny isn't bad; and flat is okay, lots of girls are pretty flat :hug: So I really hope you feel better, people hardly ever see themselves as they really are. :heart: Oh and yes, drawing is so fun…! but I usually start tons of drawings I never finish :P